New year’s resolutions take on a greater sense of urgency as
you approach your 70th birthday. Whimsical is replaced with awareness.
One needs to figure out what to accomplish while there is time.
Resolving to have a fatter bank account or a thinner body is
no longer seen as achievable or to matter all that much. In the past when I
resolved to do these things, I got them backwards anyway.
In the past, I have provided plenty of paving stones for the
road to hell with my good intentions to change. Changing who we are is hard for
everyone. For older folks, it seems unworthy of our remaining days. A Tolstoy
quote from “Anna Karenina” comes to mind. Konstantin Levin, Tolstoy wrote of
one of the book’s characters, was overcome with doubt about “the possibility of
setting up a new life.” His old life pulled him back, announcing, “No, you
won’t escape us and live differently.”
It was a long list of doubts, eternal dissatisfactions, and
vain attempts to improve that made change impossible for Levin. Tolstoy was telling
us that at a certain point in your life, you are what you are. The time to
reinvent oneself is over.
Perhaps then, New year resolutions ought to be about how we
might make that work for us. We’ve put a lot of years and effort into becoming
who we are. What have we done well in the years leading to this New Year that
can give us a different perspective on New Year resolutions?
There is no time left for doubts, eternal dissatisfactions,
or vain attempts to improve. It’s time to take what you have, be who you are,
and make it work even better for you.
Still, in 2018, I resolve to eat a little less and pray a
little more. Both, the well-being of the planet and my cardio vascular system,
could use a little less red meat and carbs. The same can be said for adding more
prayer time to my life.
I resolve to advocate harder but use softer words. I am
going to end each day earlier and start the next one sooner. Occasionally, I
will set aside my Bible, which I have read many times over many years, and pick
up someone else’s holy book and make an attempt to understand how others come
to understand the God we both serve.
I still have time to become a better preacher. It is a
blessing in the winter of life to have a pulpit in a church filled with people
you love. Today, there is so much to say and so little time to say it that a good
preacher might feel called to the streets where he can deliver a message beyond
the church doors.
The prophets of the Bible were street preachers, not the brand
of street preachers who thump their Bibles and threaten fire and brimstone.
What about the example set by Isaiah, Amos and Micah and the others? Each took
to the streets because that was where the action was. That’s where the
dismaying injustices of their community were on display.
That’s where they found and confronted kings
and merchants and exploiters of every kind to challenge their authority.
Today one matter is especially dismaying. America’s unjust
immigration system. I resolve to work harder to protect good people from
deportation and to prevent our government from ripping apart families. I will
join a bright, energetic group of Wyoming’s best young people and work side by
side with them to stop the construction of an immigrant prison in Evanston.
I’ve never been arrested. I regret that. Jesus was arrested
for challenging the Empire. So was John the Baptist, Martin Luther King and
Gandhi. You cannot preach the Gospel with integrity without a righteous arrest
record. Violating unjust laws measures your commitment to the Gospel. Arrest
follows. Given what is happening in America, 2018 would be a good time for a
New Year’s resolution to repair this shortcoming.
Your reflections hit so close to home. Thank you.
ReplyDelete